Last night, we had our consultation with the lawyer over the egg donor contract. We did it be phone and she went over all of the issues in the contract to be sure we understood everything. It's pretty cut and dry and we had read it beforehand so there were no surprises.
She did, however, mention several times that we are paying for an opportunity and not an outcome. Meaning that we are taking a lot of risk and if the egg donors eggs aren't good or don't fertilize or the embryos don't make it to freeze, etc, etc, it's not her fault. She is agreeing to go through the process on our behalf. She is not guaranteeing that we will have a successful outcome.
Of course I know all this. And this is where my biggest fear lies. That we will go through all of this, pay all this money, and be in the same spot we are now: childless. I don't want to have the make the decision again as to what to do. We have had to make so many fricken decisions during this whole process. I thought my big decision was to go to an RE in the first place. Little did I know what we would end up getting involved with. And to think, at my first meeting with the RE, I refused to even consider injectibles - opting for clomid even though he said at my age, clomid wasn't the best way to go. Injecting myself just seemed so extreme at the time. And now look where we are.
I guess with IF there is no way to get around the waiting. The 2 week wait is the worst. This waiting isn't so bad but I'm just ready to get on with it already. We made the decision to go with a donor egg in early Feb and it's looking like we won't be getting that actual egg (please!) until late July. I'm losing time here. Not much I can do about it so I'm trying to relax and focus on the end goal - a child - and how great that will be to have a child in our lives. I can't wait.